Welcome to today’s blog post. The story of How I Decided To Pack It All In. I don’t really know where to start with this one nor how long it will be. So as usual, I suggest you grab yourself a drink & some reading snacks, I have feeling we’re in for a long one.
For as long as I can remember, all I’ve wanted to do was travel. Holiday’s were always my favourite thing as a child, then as a teenager, all I remember was having this burning desire to leave. To pack everything up and see the world. Then at the age of 18 I very nearly did. Check out this video >> HERE << to learn all about that. So needless to say, travel has very much been on the brain.
Then Jodie came into my life. For those of you who don’t know Jodie, she’s my sister-in-law & fellow blogger over on NZ Film Freak. Jodie was born in the UK but for the majority of her life has lived in the New Zealand with her family… who also happen to be my grandad’s best friends…. who he also happens to live in New Zealand. So already, I have a lot of ties with New Zealand. Reece, my Brother has always wanted to live there and Jodie is now his reason. After a whirlwind relationship, an engagement which feels like it’s lasted for about 2 days but really it’s 2 years, Reece & Jodie are moving to New Zealand… and I’m going with them. Sort of, I fly out a month after them.
So already, you can see I really don’t have an excuse not to go. But why now? Why after all these years? Why am I only just deciding to go?
After the realisation at the age of 18 that travelling wasn’t going to happen, I did what everyone wanted me to do and got a proper job. I got a job in a bank, I worked my way up in the corporate world, saving every & any penny I could to some day, jump on the property ladder. But that wanderlust in the back on my mind never went away.
It all came at a time when I hated my job. I worked my way up as far as I ever was going to go. I got to the point where I was going to work every day, feeling depressed. Feeling so low and so miserable at the idea of having to be there. I felt like I was wasting my life and not living the life I knew I was destined to lead. Reece & Jodie’s move was getting closer and closer, I was hating my life more and more in the UK and it doesn’t take a genius to put two & two together. After many many discussions with friends & family, after countless internal arguments with myself I finally hit apply on a working visa for New Zealand. For me this was my test. If I could apply for the visa and get accepted, I knew I had a chance at going. If after applying I got excited at the idea of going, I knew I was doing the right thing. If not, then I knew it wasn’t for me. Well… you’re reading this post aren’t you? So you know what happened next.
The application was accepted, I told my friends & family and with that, came weeks of excitement, nerves and lots and lots of research. I truly believe everything happens for a reason and now really is my time. At 18 there is no way I was mature enough to head off to the other side of the world on my own, and travel. Now, I’ve had enough life experiences and I’ve grown up enough to know, I’ll be okay.
It wasn’t an easy decision to make. I had a lot to consider. What I was leaving behind, who I was leaving behind and the career I was just throwing down the drain. I was leaving a steady job, leaving the town I’ve lived in my entire life, full of the friends & family I’ve known my entire life, to head to a country I’ve only ever visited once, to live with just a couple of family members and to live a completely new life. Yeah, there’s been lot of consideration going on.
It was a tough decision to make but sometimes, the deciding is the hardest part. I know deep down, in the bottom of my heart this is what is right for me. And I really believe my family feel the same way. As much as they don’t want me to leave and as hard as it will be to say goodbye, they know this is what I’ve always wanted and it was only a matter of time until it happened.
I’ve never been more sure of anything in my entire life and I’m so beyond excited to see what the future holds. I’m excited for this new chapter, at the idea of this new life that’s ahead of me and ohmygod, I’m so freakin’ nervous for this next stage in my life. At the end of the day, if all fails, then I’ll be back to my hometown, with a bunch of experience in my pocket and memories that will last a lifetime.
I’m so beyond excited to share this next chapter with you guys. Thank you for sticking around so far and let’s get excited for what’s to come. For now, I still have a couple of months back in the UK before I leave, there’s a lot to do and surprisingly, not so much time to do it in.
| Harrison |